Thursday, 18 August 2011

No more coasting

Ever since Becky and I had our conversation about breaking up, I've been putting on weight. I've enjoyed eating more, I won't deny it, but I've been in a bit of a state of denial that my weight and any increases. That's stopping now. I'm back onto the eating the same thing every day. I've got 18 weeks in a row of losses to prove to me that it works.

I'm not so much in a hurry now, so losses every week are fine, I'll figure out the exercise later. My goal is simple: a loss every week. Every Monday I'll compare myself to the previous Monday. If there's a loss, I can go and see a film on Tuesday (which is the day prices are lower). If not, then I can't go.

To distract me from the loneliness (and adjusting to being single) I'm watching a DVD every day. These were recorded off television and when my video recorder got too full and I had to save it as a DVD to make room. The new rule is that I'm only allowed to watch a DVD when I weigh less that day than a week earlier.

I'm giving myself a sendoff today. It'll either be biscuits or bread. I've eaten more bread in the last 2 weeks than in the previous two years. I'll also get back to commenting and reading other blogs.

Tuesday, 2 August 2011

Guess who's on the market?

I'm single. Yes, Becky, my girlfriend of 7 1/2 years and I are no longer together. She moved out on the weekend. About 3 weeks ago I told her that I wasn't happy (which I'm not, and haven't been for a while now) and wanted to be single again. I guess it was a bit of a surprise for her, but if you look at how we've drifted apart in the last couple of years or so, all the signs were there.

It's really disappointing for me, because I've never had a relationship as enjoyable (at least at the start) as I had with Becky. I honestly rated her a '9', which is one up from my first girlfriend 20-odd years ago. I wanted to marry her. I imagined growing old together. However, I've learnt that what you want and what you get are often two different things. In case you were wondering, my weight loss hasn't caused the breakup. I'm the same weight I was when we met.

So where does this leave me in terms of losing weight? For the last 3 weeks, I've been off the diet. Not exercising. Not weighing myself. I restarted weighing myself on Sunday, but I haven't entered it on my spreadsheet. Eating properly starts today. I will find losing weight harder while single, because I get lonely easily, and guess what I do when I get lonely? That's right, fill the void with food.

I have no plans to find someone right now, although who knows what the future will bring. I'm seriously thinking of having a year overseas, in a hot, inexpensive to live in country. That's a big step for me, someone who has never been out of the country. The trip to Indonesia is off, because I've put on weight and probably wouldn't make my preferred date of November, also having two overseas trips in a short span of time is going to be too expensive.

My new life has started. I'm recording a short video diary each day on my video camera. I plan to achieve things while I'm single. Wish me luck.